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Sunday, October 12th, 2008
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11:52 pm
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This has been an amazing weekend! I went to meditation on Friday, had the best most relaxing meditation experience I've ever had, and it carried on with me through the rest of the weekend. I've felt happier, healthier, and stronger mentally then I have in a long time. This is great progress for me, I think I'm finally reaching a state that I never thought possible. I'm starting to see myself as I see myself portrayed in how others see me. This makes me very happy.
Barnes and Noble seems like it is going to be the perfect place for me! This is such a relief. Work today was nothing but filling out paper work and orientation, but it was pleasant and enjoyable. Another great thing is B and N offers benefits or full time and part time employees, payed vacation, and tuition assistance opportunities. Can you say WOW! I was just looking for a second job, and now it looks like I might be quiting my old job to make much more room for this one.
I'm going to find out what's wrong with my car tomorrow. Everything is going to work out, I can feel it! So, I've got the next couple of days mapped out as far as my ride situation which is good. So, hopefully by next weekend I'll be on the road again.
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| Saturday, October 4th, 2008
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11:58 pm
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Life is full of limitless suprises, this is something I'm just learing.
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| Thursday, October 2nd, 2008
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8:48 pm - Good news all around
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So........after much anticipation I got offered the job at the Barnes and Noble in Citiplace! I accepted the offer and I start on the 12th. Super excited about that.
I died my hair, chocolate brown, I'm a little intimidated by it. It's different, but I like it. It looks natural so that's good.
Casey called today, we should have electrisity by the middle of next week. That's good...I guess. I don't really want to live there anymore, but I feel like I have no choice. But hey, it's cheap, it's out of the way, which will allow me some peace and quiet. Think positive. Hope it'll all work.
current music: The district sleeps alone tonight.
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| Sunday, September 21st, 2008
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8:32 pm
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I feel so stuck, AGAIN. I'm never going to get out of my gma's place. I need to. This thing with Casey is taking way too long. I'm about to bail. As completely nuts as this sounds I'm about to find some random stranger on craigslist and rent a room from someone who already has a place. I've looked there is plenty of people out there who are looking for roomates. I'm sick of this shit.
current mood:  anxious
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| Monday, September 8th, 2008
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9:30 pm
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hope all is well with everyone.
i'm very fortunate to say that i made it out like a bandit with gustov, i'm worried about this ike fellow though
i'm contemplating on going to dallas for a few days.
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| Saturday, August 30th, 2008
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11:46 pm
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I've got a really bad feeling about this damn hurricane. I'm thinking it's going to be the equivelent of Katrina in NOLA to Baton Rouge.
It kind of makes me wonder why we are delt the things we are delt.
I told my Bibby that I thought that it would be a good idea if we left, she said she can't, and i know my mom won't leave either. If I didn't have a conscious, I'd leave now and save myself. I just can't bare to leave my family.
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| Tuesday, August 12th, 2008
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9:25 pm - Ram Dass
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I was in Barnes and Noble today looking for a chakras meditation book, when I stumbled upon "Be Here Now." A book written by guru Ram Dass. I am transfixed. I highly recommend you to visit his website www.ramdass.org or check the book out. I'm listening to some of his chants right now. Beautiful. This might sound crazy, I feel as though a force stronger than me compelled me to stumble upon this book not by chance, but by purpose. It's a strange, indescribable sensation. The funniest part of it all, is that I don't even understand it. I didn't have enought money to buy the book today, but after work tomorrow I plan on going back and getting it.
I'm sure I'll have more to explain and share tomorrow....well hopefully.
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| Friday, August 8th, 2008
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9:05 am - I'm feeling the mood to rant
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I'm determined not to let this ruin my mood!
I get woken up to an unwelcome "martyr", if you will. Trying to warn me of nuisances that I'm already aware of. I'm sure, in hopes that karmic retribution will turn its cheek. Well, I'm not going to be that cheek. After redundantly telling them to back off -finally getting my point across- I feel that my day my not go so bad. Only to get another unwelcome caller telling me that I've recieved a citation. "To appear in court on the 29th of August 2008, concerning the 19th of Sepetember 2007," shocked, and feeling even more disgruntled. I remembered the events of that day. I was pulling out of a parking lot on Stumberg Ln., when my driver front finder was suddenly plowed into. Where the front seat passanger of the other car was scrapped into a neck brace, and sent to the hospital. Lovely right? Well I guess I have a bit of karmic retribution to deal with myself.
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| Monday, August 4th, 2008
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12:22 am
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Just a little thought that popped into my head today:
Bonds are like string. So easily connected, yet so easily broken. I've learned that ties, friendships, if you will are so fragile. One minute you're having a great amazing; other-worldy connection. The next minute you feel as if it was impossible that you had ever felt such a connection.
Why are people so finicky? Why is it that they give up on you as soon as they hear, see, or experience something about someone else that they don't completely know, understand, or except? It saddens my heart.
Judgement is a terrible thing to waste your time on. Judgement is the root to all evil. If people stopped, thoroughly listened, and accepted people, then connections wouldn't be string they'd be concrete.
Opinions should be saved for much later in any bond or a relationship. Opinions should be reserved for when you actually know someone, not when you think you know them.
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| Sunday, August 3rd, 2008
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11:11 am
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So for about the last couple of weeks I've had this deep feeling of anxiety. Not in a way that I was anxious about things going on in my life, but more of an anxiety of what might be to come.
I'm sure this sounds kinda crazy, but I've been having a strong sence that something big is about to happen. I don't mean this on a grand scale in which it will effect the lives of millions or anything. More on a grand scale in my own personal life. I've been trying to stay cautious of my intuitive feelings to make sure that when it hits me I recognise it.
Well, I thought I caught it, then I think I may have been wrong. Don't you hate it when something like that happens? Expecally when the thing you thought it was, was the thing that you wanted it to be.
So, now I'm back at square one. I've just got to remeber that everything happens for a reason and with every action there is a consequence and with every consequence there is a learning experience behind the action.
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| Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008
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11:04 pm
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i got my pictures developed from the dominican republic. lets just say that I'm very dissapointed in the way they turned out.
my digital camera was broken so all i had to use was my fish-eye and when wanting to take a literal interpretation on something a fish-eye isn't the ideal thing to take it with. and then when i picked them up today they developed them in a poor quality and not even with the specific directions that i gave them on how i wanted them developed.
which in turn is making me question weither or not i even want to post them b/c i'm embarrased of the quality.
its going to take me a while to sort them out anyways so they're comming i guess.
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| Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
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9:21 am - The Radiant Buddha said:
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Regard this fleeting world like this:
Like stars fading and vanishing at dawn,
like bubbles on a fast moving stream,
like morning dewdrops evaporating on blades
of grass,
like a candle flickering in a strong wind,
echos, mirages, and phantoms, hallucinations,
and like a dream.
- The Eight Similes of Illusion,
From the Prajna Paramita Sutras
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| Wednesday, July 2nd, 2008
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3:35 pm
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the dominican republic was amazing, photos and stories to come
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| Monday, May 19th, 2008
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11:09 pm
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today was amazing
this pretty much sums it up, too bad valyne and casey weren't able to be in it too!
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| Sunday, May 18th, 2008
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11:54 pm
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my birthday is in six minutes....
this year instead of getting i'm going to give back in kindness
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| Saturday, May 10th, 2008
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3:23 pm
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I've come to the realization that I'm a dreamer, not a doer.
What can I do to change that.......
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| Monday, May 5th, 2008
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11:13 pm - happy cinco de mayo
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My eating habbits are skrewed up again. This is really bothering me. I like that I am aware of what I put in my mouth. I hate that I once was among the ranks of those who would shovel anything and everything in their mouths with no forth thought! I've maintained a stable weight for probably the last six months, I try to eat heathly, organic if possible. It seems as though the past couple of days maybe a week, I've very much so let this slip. Now, I wouldn't call it a "diet" I'd call it more a life style change. Well, whatever it is I need to change it!
WHEW
Now that that's over with.
Happy CINCO DE MAYO everybody! I went to On The Boarder today for lunch with Gio, Hayden, Adam, Valyne and Casey. It was pretty fun. Except for whem V and I went to the bathroom and I made the mistake of leaving my phone at the table, because when we came back my phone had been turned into a spanish phone. In honor of Cinco De Mayo, they said. Pish, I took me up until about an hour ago to get it off the spanish language and back to english.
Then we went thrift store shopping. I found this mexican motif shirt with a little man in a sombrerro(sp?) and mexican beer. Then Valyne found a pair of skinny bright red men's pants. We bought them and Hayden wore it. PRICELESS. That had to have been the highlight of my day, it was hillarious! We also got some old tapes to play in my car. One's the triller, van haylen, show tunes, and my favorite one is a homemade mix tape of led zepplin's houses of holy. What makes it so cool is that it was recorded off an old vinyle record so it's got that really amazing vintage sound. I listened to it all day today!
current mood:  sleepy
current music: dyer myer
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| Tuesday, April 29th, 2008
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11:07 pm
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i'm starting to hate my job
because i'm there so much
i'm ruining friendships with some of the people i love the most in this world.
i don't know what to do....whats more worth it: quiting a job i really love or losing a some great friends?
current mood:  annoyed
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| Thursday, April 24th, 2008
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11:52 pm
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Sometimes it seems the things I want most out of life are the things I'm the furthest from. I don't think I dream big, I think I'm pretty reasonable. I can't tell you how nice it would be to get away from this mess that is life. I want nothing more than to travel and have a companion, and I don't even mean that in a romantic way. Honestly the only thing that is keeping me in a stand still, the only thing that is keeping me here, is that I know if I were to leave now I'd be doing it along. Not that I'm saying doing and or being along is bad, its actually very good at times, but how fun can an adventure be if you have no one to share it with?
One of these days I'll get that. I'll get my little cottage in the woods with my wild flower garden and not a care in the world. Until then I'll just keep hopeing that one day I'll make my dreams into a reality.
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| Tuesday, April 22nd, 2008
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10:48 am
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Happy Earth Day!
current mood:  cheerful
current music: good morning starshine
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